Becoming a vampire

I don't know. Maybe I am still feverish, maybe I just have read too much of "that stuff". But I have definitely not been eating too much lately, which makes me feeble and capable of dozing off in full daylight, not being able to fall asleep at night on the contrary. One day I felt angry with my neighbours just because they cooked something very aromatic and used a lot of garlic for it and the smell made me sick.

And, to cup it all, last night as I walked past the mirror, I got frightened by the ghostly shadow I saw where the reflection of a girl should have been. Of course, it was dark, and my skin stays very pale even in the summer, but this was an extreme. Very thin and very pale figure with dark circles under her eyes was staring at me disapprovingly and stroking her long hair which seemed quite white as well. "This is not me", thought I, shook my head and grinned, just to check if the ghost would do the same. It did, which made the "vampire look" only worse. I have always had sort of pointy ears, which made my friends make such comments as "You look like a devil" or "You look like an elf", depending on the situation, and I definitely have a pair of pointy teeth, not sure that in the right place for a vampire, but just yesterday, it made the effect. I studied the reflection a bit closer and realized that the most vampire-like thing about it was the bright red colour of my lips, shining in a supernatural contrast to the transparent skin. I might have bitten them too much because of the fear that I would be expelled (but no need to worry, I will have the whole eternity for repeating the university, if I am a vampire now), or it might have been the raspberry flavour I was adding into water with medicine to make it taste better, who knows.

The fact is that I have decided that -cough or no cough- I have to get myself among other people as soon as possible. I would much rather realize that I behave like a bloodthirsty monster in their presence than that I have gone completely mad because of the loneliness and separation.